Trying not to think about it too much.
So, last night I called the Dog Man. He was saying that he missed me a lot, so much that he hadn’t been sleeping well. I was surprised, felt kind of guilty, and felt a big sense of responsibility. I mean, if somebody loves you, or even really likes you, that’s a big deal. You could really hurt their feelings if you did something wrong, disappointed them, or whatever. I mean, what if I do meet someone else while I’m here …
Anyway, we were talking, and he said that it was good that I will get a higher salary when I come back (although I don’t really know if that is true), because getting married and buying an apartment costs a lot of money. I was like, “!!! What does this mean!!!” although I did not say that.
Wow! It seems like he is taking this all really seriously, just as I am worrying more and more about whether it would be possible for it to work out. I am worrying about a few different things, like my cultural snobbishness, etc. and how that would affect things if I couldn’t get over it. But who knows until we try, right?
I’m just going to have to try not to worry about this too much. This whole thing is strange to me.
June 17th, 2009 at 6:40 pm
When you say this it makes me remember something about Meng….
When I first liked him, I was all about it being fairly casual. And he had made it perfectly clear that he was not ready for a relationship. Then suddenly, and I mean very suddenly he just changed his mind and it was a relationship we had.
Perhaps something happened between you and the Dog Man that made this happen for him.