The confusion.
I’m going through this thing again where I’m contemplating returning to the US. Every so often I start thinking about this, and it makes me all churned up. It would be a huge change. I’m afraid of making the wrong decision. I have all these weird, magical thoughts about what I should do and where I should go, like, “God doesn’t want me to go to New York City.” I think I want to see the future before I decide, so I can make the decision that is the best possible one.
Going through this decision process is a huge stressor for me. I don’t know who to talk to about it. I’d appreciate any help here, whether in the form of suggestions or general encouragement.
Maybe I just need a change? My life just seems to have stagnated. It would also be nice to be surrounded by things I could read easily again.
December 18th, 2006 at 12:16 pm
It seems trivial compared to what you’re ruminating, but… I wanted to let you know rox.com had some problems over the weekend. I think they are corrected now. Except for b.rox.com which will be offline for a while!