Oh boy, am I stupid!
I just got the bandage removed today, and I’m horrified and upset.¬† It’s not that the operation wasn’t a success, it’s just that I don’t like how I look now (although to be honest, I didn’t like how I looked before …).¬† I feel that my face looks bland and fat.¬† I’m angry at myself, also, that I didn’t get the one on my cheek removed first, when that was the one I really didn’t like.¬† I was sort of okay with the one I got removed first.¬† I guess I just did it first because other people had suggested it.¬† But why did I listen to them?!?¬† I guess I’m just dumb.
I’m so disappointed that I feel nauseous.
To be rational, I’d be thinking of getting these removed since I was in college, and I’ve always hated them.¬† So if I hadn’t done it, I’d always wonder about it.¬† I also know that maybe in time I’ll get used to the way I look now.¬†
But now, anyway, it’s painful.¬† I feel like I’ve made a mistake.¬†